Big, Ugly Downswing
The past two days have been hell, in regard to poker at least. I’ve actually managed to take it somewhat in stride as things are otherwise pretty good in my life at the moment, so that’s the silver lining. I am down in the neighborhood of 19 buy-ins in the last 2 days, 10.5 coming on Monday, 8.5 on Tuesday. Monday evening I pretty much lost my mind and was playing badly, but that tilt probably only accounts for about 3 buy-ins. According to PokerEV, Monday I ran 7.5 buy-in’s below equity on Full Tilt alone, and I had some gross hands on Cake that probably account for another buy-in. Most of the tilt involved combating persistent 3-bettors with 4-bet all-in bluffs that nearly always ran into QQ+. More of my tilt involved spewing at in opportune times as opposed to making bad calls and such. I’ve been coolered with overpairs and TPTK so many times it’s entirely expected now. However, I was feeling better by yesterday, eager to play again just to prove to myself that I was still sane. Three more buy-ins below equity, overpairs running into sets, missing all draws, light reraisers always showing down the goods against me in reraised pots; it was a continuation of the same nightmare from the day before and I just never woke up. It didn’t wind up affecting my play, but I forced myself to stop because I didn’t want to snap.
So, here I am today, in a similar situation as I was in yesterday. I want to play! I can’t decide if I should or will. I honestly feel like I can play well and be as profitable as ever right at this very second. Also, I don’t want to give up on making Iron level Ironman when this is the best start I’ve had towards that end for months. I think I’ll put a tight stop-loss on and go for it; I have no illusions of making of what I’ve lost in any big hurry, I just want to get the ball rolling in the right direction again.
February 6th, 2008 at 11:01 am
Hahaha SUX 2 B U
February 6th, 2008 at 12:51 pm
Good luck man! You’re due for some…. hang in there, you’re a +EV player by far.
February 7th, 2008 at 12:01 am
You need to get back on the horse for sure man. Taking a day off after a few days of coolers, tilt sessions, etc. Isn’t a bad idea either.. I think I’ve mentioned to a few of you guys that my month has started like shit too.. I mean really bad, not too much in the way of $$$$ losses, but I’m on a small roll after helping a friend out of a jam and I’m trying to rebuild.. So every little bit hurts..
Johnny’s right, you have your head on straight compared to mist players who decide poker is their career. Best of all I think you are giving your self good honest evaluations of your play. that is hard for most players to do. This alone will keep you on the right path long term.
Good luck man, we know you can do it.